The Deep Deep Blue Poem by charlotte marie peachey

Once again the call begins
Begging me back to the blade
Drags me down in the deep blue waves
As I feel reality fade

I'm drowning in the deep deep blue
An ocean of sadness and pain
I feel the need to draw my blood
So the razor calls my name

I cry out in the silence
A scream of hurt and shame
No matter how I start this thing
The outcomes always the same

Its the repeating cycle
A lunatics game
The life in me used to be a roaring fire
Now its nearly a flame

So I go through my days
With my head held low
Hiding the emotions
That I'll never show

And cover up my face
With a mask that lies
And speak words
With a truth that defies

I struggle through
theses long, long days
Hopelessly lost
In a never ending maze

Smiling through
The painful tears
Holding back
My irrational fears

So tell me
Why do you think this is a lie?
When I've done nothing
But tell the truth the whole time