The Closest I Have Ever Been Poem by Scott Salmon

Awake I reach to feel your warmth,
Each day I feel you gone,
My fist I clench and tighten,
Inhaling deep to calm,

I want to yell and pound my fist,
Though silence is maintained,
All my muscles tighten up,
I remember then I'm drained,

Addiction is an ugly word,
The never ending sting,
Accepted and I wait for death,
The angels soon will sing,

When I thought my love was lost,
Away I fled for hope,
With plans to start so far away,
And leave behind the dope,

A miracle then brought by train,
Expelled for loving me,
A curse to darken all my days,
Forbidden he makes me,

A family to believe in life,
At last we finally won,
Achieve a clean reality,
My lover and my son,

So many try but fail to see,
How easily life turns,
You feel content so you forget,
To soothe a heart that yearns,

To accomplish what I contemplate,
I thought could never be,
The beginning of true happiness,
The two of us set free,

I knew not how to love quite yet,
All feelings differ so,
Seeing all from newborn eyes,
We needed time to grow,

A miracle can change your life,
In just a blink they say,
Remember all must hold on tight,
It might just go away,

So now I know how possible,
Alone I'm just a man,
We both had broke the ritual,
With her I know I can,

Since the end of days for me,
My love seems just a whim,
The object of my heart is as,
The same as her to him,

There has to come a time for her,
When she will think of me,
My love so strong was all in vain,
It drained my hope you see,

My anger gets the best of me,
I whisper in your ear,
Another man forbidding me,
Is truely what I fear,

My wish is that your word hold true,
Alive my love will stay,
As you wish some time apart,
I'll hold you some fine day.

SS