That Place I Fear Poem by Ankoku Gekido

Things are returning to how they used to be
Returning to the times when I am useless
To the times when my life has no meaning
To when I cant trust anyone
To when I have to hide my feelings to survive
To when I have to stand strong
To when I cried every night
To when I stood strong and independent during the day
To when I thought of death
To when I feel alone all the time
To when everyone walks by me in my dark sorrow and laugh
To when people pass out of my life like its nothing
Returning to a time I hoped would never exist again
To when I failed all my classes cause I just don't care
To when all my teachers hate me
To when I’m not afraid to get in a fight
To when I know I'll come out victorious or die trying
To when nothing mattered
To when I was locked in my house of pain and sorrow
I don't want to return to this time
I would rather die
Than be sent to this horrid place in my mind
To this place even Satan is afraid of
To this place where no one besides me have survived
I don't want to go back
In that place where all nightmares come true
To the place where everyone dies horribly
I don't want this place to find me again
Is the only place death?
Is that the only place I am safe?
The only place where I am saved from my nightmares?
Than death it shall be
In the eternal resting place
In the one place I would rather go than there
Only one man can save me
Like he has before
But will he?
Does this man I love really care?
Will he save me from my fate?