That Feeling Poem by Aiko Jerry

what is this feeling
there is a weight in my head
do you feel what i feel
my grip on reality is loosening
my words...my words...
my words form as a mirage
just far enough for me not to reach
just near enough for me not to miss
what are those words in the mysterious cloud
i dont want to have just a thousand words
how will i talk to her...
how will i talk to them, him, the world
give me a million words, dont rid me of this world
dont leave me
i still have to love, i wish i never hate
maybe this is my stage, isnt it?
this makes no sense, but this isnt nonsense
distant cloud give me meaning
dont leave me leaking, leaking all meaning
meaning is what am missing
but back to how am feeling
meaning gives me feeling
let me look for meaning
let me look for feeling