Thank You For: Poem by neo riddick

pushing me away
tossing me to the side
telling me not to do
telling me what to do
taking my pride
putting me down
giving birth to me, hating me, and giving me away
every ill word you ever spoke of me
giving me life when I never wanted to be
placing a tumor inside of me
the eating disorder and self hate that manifest into self harm
taking away my tears
the most horrible reality.
My life
so awful is every day. more sadness than I ever thought
But what I really thank you for is
well
it matters not.
Because the truth is
It is all my fault