Tell Me What To Do Poem by Pain Nso

All this time... i had always tried my best to endure the pain...
i had try it again and again to hide away my feeling...
but how much longer did i have to hide it away?
i know it's wrong..that's why i try to hide it away...
but now, those feeling had become a poison for me...
it kills me from the inside... but i try to endure it.... again and again...
and now i can no longer endure it anymore...
i had started to completely break apart...
everytime i say to myself to endure it...
i started to feel sad...
everytime i mutter all my courage to endure it a lil bit more...
just because u still need me...
but, even u said u need me and trust me..
u never ever shown u care...
u lied and always tried to hide a lot of fact from me..
u said that i know u the best...
but u tell other people about something that even i don't know...
i always had to ask u to open up to me...
but u open all ur heart to the other people that never ask for it..
and now the pain keep on getting stronger....
all my tears had dried up... no more tears to shed...
i pray to God, but i found no salvation...
god... pls stop play a joke on my life.. this same case had ever happen before too right?
why i always have to feel this kind of pain?
and now pls tell me what to do...