, Tears Of Delight Poem by Louise Tredoux

The memory of last night is growing in
my heart, the warmth of your presence
is slowly melting all the cold loneliness
away, the beauty of being in your arms
is warming my heart

I was freezing without you, Rudi, although
I sent you my faith and trust to keep you
safe, and it worked; I did not have vital
energy left for myself, when you
returned and the world turned

Right side up, I did not have power to enjoy
your return, now as you fill me with love and
joy, your staunch presence, your love, your
lips, I’m becoming myself again – but I was
so cold beneath the façade of trust

So cold – it takes some time to warm up
again, but the warmth of your touch – I
missed you so much and had to keep a
positive face for Providence’s sake,
convincing the gods that they

Could use my faith to bring you back – slowly
defrosting now, releasing the fears I had buried
beneath a trusting veneer, forgive me for crying
so much – I did not dare to shed too many tears
while you were gone

I had to be strong - the pain has to be released,
but these are tears of joy;
tears of delight!