Surrogate Poem by Maria Sudibyo

You give me your brightest smile
Your hands are warm to mine
It is almost a perfect romance
But I'm just the surrogate
I should not even feel

It's not me you imagine
You only need a replacement
I'm just a substitute
To cover your truly desire

You always have the shadow
That avoid you to be responsible
You often give me a false hope
But I'm just the surrogate
You never want me for real

I'll follow your act
My smile still won't crack
I'm ready for the impact
With everything on track

I'll be good
I'll be very very good
I'll follow your mood
Though maybe it is not always good

You shout so harsh and cramp
Your words insult my mind 
It is nearly a killing time
But I'm just the surrogate
I know that you don't mean it

I'm not the one you see
You only need a release
I'm just a simple distraction
Easy to be abandoned 

You ask me to tell it plain
Your eyes beg me to understand 
It looks like a good agreement
But I'm just the surrogate
My truth is always on the seal

I'll be obedient
I'll show my acceptance
I'll adapt with your sense
Even it is out of insane

I'll be the fool
I'll be your perfect tool
I'll move like a doll
Who doesn't have any goal