Standing In A Void (Of When You Left) Poem by Eila Mahima Jaipaul

quivering with sorrow and loss
sitting in a void
fighting with desperation
for something besides
the scourging taint of
impending lonely,
agony was in my chest
as if my heart were going to implode
pain so strong that even in this nothing
I wanted to scream
emptiness shimmered, dwindled
my heart no longer beating
fingers of darkness crept in
smoothing a gray veil falling over seeing eyes
silver and black flecks floated between us
as the burn of breath on empty lungs took over
my world swallowed in agony
not just heart and head this time
but everywhere, every part of me
covered with the need for you
I will die slowly,
begging to let me love you
raggedly pleading silently
as you walk away