Sometimes Poem by Mel. D.

Sometimes I don't pay attention to how hot I turn the water.
Sometimes it's so hot that it sears my unsuspecting skin.
Sometimes I do notice and tell myself that it doesn't matter.
Sometimes I feel like it's enough to finally match what's within.

Sometimes I pick at the innocent finger holding my pen.
Sometimes that finger starts to bleed and I move to the next.
Sometimes I feel like I'm under so much stress it should be a sin.
Sometimes I run out of fingers but continue to pick, perplexed.

Sometimes I reach out and send a cheerful "Heyy" through text.
Sometimes it should be the serious "hey" instead of the lighthearted lie,
But sometimes it's easier to deal with the ignored playful pretext,
When sometimes I should have sent less as inside emotions fly.

Sometimes when I'm alone I put a drop of water in the corner of my eye,
Because sometimes I want tears in which to make all my feelings fit,
But sometimes despite that my body just won't let me cry.
Sometimes I just want the emotions inside to leak out a bit.

Sometimes I think I'm so smart and tough and have a quick wit.
Sometimes I realize the depths of my stupidity exceed infinity.
Sometimes my scars are reminders of where my skin split.
Sometimes they are memories of emotional turmoil and insanity.

Sometimes I wish, like in the past, you could be here with me.
Sometimes I want only to snuggle into you and deeply inhale.
Sometimes I realize I miss you as I think of you repetitively.
Sometimes my mind keeps going over your every last detail.

Sometimes I get scared as my thought trains derail.
Sometimes they crash into memories with haste.
Sometimes into a sea of regrets my mind will sail.
Sometimes I wish my lips had known your taste.

Sometimes I remember your arms around my waist,
And sometimes I think I smell your scent again.
Sometimes I wish I could once more be embraced.
Sometimes I have to remind myself now isn't then.

Sometimes I feel intensely overwhelmed every so often.
Sometimes I tell myself that I'll be fine if I just let it be.
Sometimes I only want to deeply sear some calmness in.
Sometimes I want to talk but am glad you can't see me.

But sometimes it is what it is, you are where you are
Even though sometimes I wish you weren't quite so far.