So Hurt Inside Poem by Shilesha Johnson

What hurts me inside isn't so much what I've gone through
It's more the fact that those who made me cry
were the ones I never expected to
The one's I've trusted with everything I had
I let my guard down and now I can't take any of it back
The memories wont erase and the pain won't subside
and itll always be this way even after everything I've tried
Being Honest, Geunine and Loving isn't enough
So I'm not enough or worth being good to
Instead I get taken for granted and misused
It's not my fault that I care this much love so hard or so deep
It's in my nature but nature curses me
I just sometimes wonder how God could be okay with me feeling this way
Thats why less and less I'm beginning to pray