Shutting Myself Of Poem by nicky joyce

Amazing is what I use to think
Before mind starts to over think
Wanting to sit and watch the waves
Wanting to stare at ur amazing gaze
Looking out the window nothing there
Just lost open space and despair
Looking around to my delight
Stupid me your nowhere in sight
Staying up late cause I can’t sleep
Why I ask myself its cause I’m weak
Thinking that I was maybe someone
Just turned out I was completely wrong
What was that what did I hear?
Nothing just my heart yet again disappears
Letting my guard down once again
Trusting someone wanting to extend
Was so amazing was so pure
Now my heads just banging against the door
Well lesson learnt yet once again
Good things for me will always end
Shut of my heart and my head
Least that way I will never feel decent