Shaded Emotions Poem by RoseAnn V. Shawiak

Settling into a mode of interior thinking, feeling the many
emotions I have traveled through all my life and trying to
understand them even now, in senior years.

Particularly the shaded ones that entice me all the more,
trying to find the reasons that they still insist on appearing
even to this day.

Now figuring out it's because I have never dealt with any of
them before.

Stopping my mind time and again from remembering them, because
they were always too painful to think about.

Even now, they still are, but are needed to be put to rest so
I can end life on a positive note, letting go of the suffering,
sorrow, loneliness, emptiness and abandonment of childhood.

No more tears before I leave this earth, at least hopefully.