Sadness Poem by Nangamso Ndikandika

I refuse to be a Slave
I refuse to be petrified and destroyed
By the shades of darkness
They find me at my weakest moments
Pursues to make me a pessimist
Changing my colour and only identity
I am chained and imprisoned by misfortune

In the midst of my mind
I find closure and rest
On the bed smarten up with thorns
Giving me discomfort, but still I rest

This pain and sad emotion
Controls my each and every bone
Trying to change the structure of my skeleton

It aims to demoralize and erase my efforts
To experience the joys and glory
That shines far at the end of the rainbow

I am my worst enemy
I trust no one around
My vulnerable back is in fear
I’m always on the look out
Of monsters to my soul

Living like this worried my demons
And erased my soul desires
Then I realized,
That I am stronger than my fears

I am not the hips I’m always teased about
I am not my big behind, always described about
I realized that I am not the person they say I am

For I am a Sun goddess, that brings light and glory
I am inkosazana uncelebrated
In my own world I am the rain queen.
For without me, Sun and Rain
There could be no rainbow