Robbed From Childhood Poem by Maura Sánchez

One day

I just couldn't take it
The days always felt the same
It may
turn into something fatal
and who's to blame?

You took away my childhood
All I had was that infancy
You joined them in my mockery

That wound

Will never heal for me

Yesterday
I wrote a suicide letter
just so in paper I could see
The things that were for the better
Too bad they weren't there for me

You banned me from my childhood
All the infancy in me
How could I be somebody
who wasn't me?

Today
I found my suicide letter
Was it really from me?
As I looked at all the lettering
I noticed, it couldn't have been from me

Your name wasn't in it!
How could this be? !
I just wanna pin it
inside and deep in me

I hope you decompose and disintegrate in hell
Until I ring the bell
attached to all the memories
of what you did to me

The ones that are not dead
and will always come back to me

I wish you be tortured instead
But malicious is something I cannot be