Repulsion Poem by Aaron Lynn

I've tried to improve myself.

To outlast the pain and transcend.

Oh, time is the greatest witness.

And I know I cannot win.



I'm weak and I devour.

The sustenance I can find.

I'm stressed and I can't control.

The length I consider the line.



My fortitude falls away.

And I feel insane.

Stricken with sadness, bewildered with rage.

Confidence shackled in chains.


Please don't tell me a lie.

I don't want you to see me cruel.

And don't return my 'I love you'

Unless you're telling the truth.




I can't define the disease.

This plague still gripping my soul.

But I'm falling to my knees.

Losing the ability to grow.



I'm repulsed by the light that shows.

The turmoil that flocks to me.

I'm repulsed by the wind that blows.

The fragrance of these memories.

I'm repulsed by the powers that be.

Forcing me towards my defeat.

But the most agonizing of my disgust.

Is that I'm mostly repulsed by me.



And so, I turn from the glass.

Ambiguity tells the tale.

I wonder how things would have been.

If I had just remained in my shell.