Regret! Behind The Closed Doors Poem by Shaila Touchton

Marriage is dead with pleasures and all happiness fled
Completely living in loveless marriage where no relationship left.
We are strangers living under the same roof.
Living with selfish cruel and inconsiderate man

You say you care But you don't
You said you'd change but you won't
You say you love but you don’t show in words nor actions
You hide hatred with lying lips
You are man of ever full of accusations and criticisms
An wolf in sheep’s clothing
To make yourself look good, you are manipulative, rageous, blaming, tormentive and a pathological lier
You are bitter, resent, cynical, harsh, cold, relentless, and unpleasant to be around with.

You are killing my spirit and trampling my soul
Wearing me down, physically, mentally, and emotionally.
Making me feel hopeless and lost
I live everyday with Everlasting pain and regrets
No matter how hard I cry.
You never hear me

No one understand the pain I go through everyday
My eyes are so tired, regretting again and again
My heart has been broken again and again

My head is sore and hard to carry
My shoulders can’t bear the weight
Feel so broken Want to be outspoken
Feel so insecure with no cure
I am suffocated in my own world
For being innocent to trust deceivers

With all this pain deep inside I smile outwardly
Willing to take an extra mile
I have no choice but to be forever silent
I am like a prisoner feeling trapped
Forever suffering, for the sake of family
Living life regretting for yesterdays choice
Life can be so hard when you are broken
Every day is a struggle but Life must go on

God is my refuge in my time of trouble
And I will live to serve Him for the rest of my days.
I can face my fears and no longer shed tears
For God is with me in all my circumstances
Lord God, fill my heart with courage and strength
To become strong enough to face any situation
Give me renewed strength and courage each new day
For I call upon you for guidance and protection in each new way.