Recovery Poem by shami giles

There's a half of a face

While I look in the mirror

My life feels like a waste

The subtle differences slowly become clearer

A piece of me is dead

while the other half I know dies

Preventing me to grow

I'm stuck in a web of lies

There's a wrath that compells me

When I think of my father

A hunger grows inside me

Cause I wanna know me further

I want to recover

I want to feel this space

So I can stop blaming others

It's hard to find a lover

For hating myself

Because of your abscence

For hating myself because of this face

I always felt alone, I am always alone

The sight of you crumbles my soul

I feel stuck in a well

Full of deep, black, tar of disdain That I taste

I wanna run away

Because of you I will never know me further

I will never trust a lover

I will never need a father

Though the missing half will become fuller

At least I can trust myself knowing I do not need a father