Reaching In The Bed Room Night Poem by Lonnie Hicks

I could reach out to you
but hesitancy grips-
freezes things
and I grow anger about that
the hesitancy you've bred in me;
because I sense and know you'll not reciprocate

I therefore then and there plan my revenge
I know that is silly.

I had a thought with myself
ascribing actions to you
you have not done yet
and I then count my self
self righteous
for having endured
what you have said
or not done yet
based solely on my predictions
of what you would do if I did.

This is crazy before crazy
seizes me
in my understanding
of what is real and not real
and then I blame you too for this.

He said:
'I see you reach out as I have wanted but
that hesitancy makes makes me doubt
your sincerity
and I shrink away
awaiting more assurance
that you sincerely do
mean what reaching out signifies.

It is terrors fate to
to lay in bed
and each
fears to touch or reach
before sex or affection
can be breached.
And each for different reasons
takes the cowards way out;

and freezes

thereby
guarantees
freezes
and hurt feelings.

Bed room reaches
human psyches
or not.