Protecting Myself To Protect You Poem by ashley roberts

I am so scared of the truth and i am so scared of what i might see
I am scared that if i stop protecting my loved ones who will protect me?
The only way for me to feel safe is for me to put everyone before myself
As long as they are safe and happy i don`t care about my body my health

To stop protecting my loved ones would mean i would put my guard down
Evan though i want to be happy if i open up i think my heart will just drown
My untold fears from my past are kept a secret and the reason i hide frowns
Faking the happy side of me and trying to hide it yet i ware this like a crown

Letting everyone see the sad side of me not letting anyone in they can`t help me
Trying to change so i can protect them but trying to let myself be happy, be free
Going at the world alone is lonely and scary i just hope that i`m what i need to be
Maybe one day i will find the one who will knock down my walls only then will i see