Problems With Me Poem by Selina Munsey

i only hear what i want to hear
maybe because im insecure

im not sure but i think im falling for him
i cant say it
because down that road ive been

i have the tendency to be jealous and competitive
issues with choice of words and trust
because i have memories where i was used
for not love but lust

i want to believe but i cant
my heart will not allow
its literally the source
of my prolems now

the problems ive had
have hurt me inside
things i try to cover up
but really shouldnt let them hide

sometimes i get too clingy
or seem uninterested
i just dont know what emotion
would be best invested

i dont know how to act right
what to do next
its a thing i have no stradegy for
but protect myself best

which even so doesnt work
because myself i'll hurt
i might as well rip out my heart
and throw it in the dirt

thats what i feel
ive already done
i dont want u too
but i'd advise you to run

im a crazy soul
bound beween two
but i dont even care
i just want you

i dont know what im trying to say or convey
but i guess i'll start with i was falling for you even the first day