Please Help Me And Answer My Question Poem by tara mahdavi

God help me come out of this despair
sitting here in the corner of life
with a dark curtain, there are many whys
seeing just how people suffer and die
receiving just pain,
don't know how my life goes on
how i trust life?
they try for today and tomorrow,
i can't find the meanings of
it was like playing cards,
all the time
i chose the rong cards.
with a blink we are old
we find
it's our turn to die
we ask ourselves, what was the meaning of life
i ask it now, thousand time
it is not fair, not knowing what happens to us
i don't want to die,
God help me to find a way to survive.

please answer my question if you can
but don't say
life is life
life is a must
we are here to try
to have aGOOD life

it's a precious word
if we find the meaning of
we don't die
we get ready for another life.