Past Is Not History! Poem by Jithu Varghese

my past, my past, my past
where does my future lie
Once strong, firm and courageous
Pale, sad and weak today
what changed? what was bestowed upon me?
A mutation I never thought I would see

A Shadow, A reflection
A Melancholy of my past
A happy cheerful me
Something I am not today
my past, my past, my past
what changed? what was bestowed upon me?

I looked into hourglass
Inverted it so that it take me back
Happy, cheerful me
Victory in everything I did
A sense of togetherness
Illuminous white teeth, a smile on my face

I still have victories, I still succeed
Then why the doom and gloom?
I know, I know
I feel lonely today, A feeling I never had in the past
Belief and trust in myself was no more
I let my self down, unlike what I thought

my past, my past, my past
You showed me the wrong of my present
I know what I lost, I know how I can gain it all
now I believe again, in someone I lost believing in
Me, myself and me.
my past, my past, my past
Thank you for showing me the way