Only Then Poem by Phineas Morudu

Only then that i feel that i'm not strong enough.
Only when the curtans are pulled down nd i see no light,
Only when the doors are closed nd i'm all alone,
Only when i get to bed nd i feel so alone nd so empty,
Only when tears start falling down nd i can't hold them back nd my pillow get so wet,
Only then that my sorrow comes back to me,
Only then that it hurt so bad that it could'nt get much worse,
Only then that i feel the pain,

The day will only come again after endless hours of tossing nd turning,
Nd i will be back again to face the world,
Back again to put a smile on my face nd be brave,
I go on as if nothing is eating me up inside,
I put myself together nd try to keep strong,
Strong enough to live this life nd to survive,
But at the end of the day,
When i have to go back to my hiding place,
Back again to face my lonlyness nd emptyness,
My sorrow nd my pain,
Only then that i feel that i'm not strong enough,
Only then that i feel that i'm not strong enough,
Only then,
Only then.