On My Deathbed Poem by Randy McClave

As I lie on my deathbed
Thoughts and memories start entering my head,
With all the hate and anger that I held
I wish now that they all could be expelled.
But, they can't;
As I lie on my deathbed.

I think of all the people that I have hated
Now, into my thoughts they all are now fated,
The prejudice and the evil that I have brought
Sadly, to others it I had taught
I wish that I could recant;
I think of all the people that I have hated.

Thoughts and mistakes become much clearer
Especially when death comes nearer,
Why towards hate was I ever driven
Could my soul ever be forgiven.
A hymn I wish to chant;
Thoughts and mistakes become much clearer.

I now look through the eyes of others
Of sons, daughters, fathers and mothers,
I see them persecuted and ridiculed and harassed for fun
And I see me there, as a rerun.
I grieve and I rant;
I look through the eyes of others.

Life it is so very short
Why did I become the devil's cohort,
I remember how biased and vicious that I once was
Now, I hope to go to the place that is love.
Poison I did plant;
Life it is so very short.

As I lie on my deathbed
The Bible again to me is read,
Is that an angel or a demon that I see
Did God or the devil accept my apology.
I begin to pant;
As I lie on my deathbed.

Randy L. McClave