'Oh, Woe Is Me' Poem by Andrus Cassian

Some days...sometimes I just wish
I just wish the dreams I dream
I just wish the dreams that shudder me awake
I just wish the dreams that haunt me
would simply swallow me whole...
Hear me out
just hear me out
I've realized what I can't stomach
I've realized what I keep trying to escape
I have picked my poison
and the evil scientist who has created life
keeps injecting the virus in my bloodstream
slowly decreasing my life cycle
I've tried so hard to keep steady
I guess this is the part where I say
'oh, woe is me'
but all I can say is let me sleep
Let me sleep
It may haunt me
and I may die one more time
or just in consecutive sequence
without a funeral, without a eulogy
but I shall wake in time for the next day to start
like always, I shall wake in time for the next day to start
though I would receive one more phantom scar
to prove what I endured in make believe
wasn't an illusion just to me
Maybe I'm the only illusion
I already feel like a ghost
moving from body to body
yet somehow I've kept my own
I don't know
my philosophy is sacred yet nonsense
I can't expect it to make sense to you
to you my audience
I guess I just need a listener or two
I keep repeating things shall get better
repeating life isn't a complete disaster
repeating I shall find a way to live forever
but my number is now at 18
with possibly 70 years more to count down
So if I live forever, it's through these pages I construct
and I'll die one more death
and I'll die in a fiery inferno
if my pages bear the flame of no return
Please don't allow that to happen to me...
Some days...I just wish
just wish the dreams I dream
just wish the dreams that haunt me
would swallow me whole
For a reason I can't describe
but the only reason I can inscribe it
in my current pages
where I shall attempt to live forever
in poetic history
even if it's just known by me
'Oh, woe is me'
Satisfied?
I won't be until I close my eyes
and dream tonight
and dream tonight
that somewhere in the world I would flying
surfing through the stars
the stars, my second home
So where is my first...