Nowhere Girl Poem by Leah Ayliffe

I didn't know the rarity
Of living life inside a dream.
I didn't see the strange way
That people saw my quiet daze.
It was hard loving you,
It was hard finding me,
And I couldn't have you,
When I didn't even have myself.
I was a sad lost girl,
Stuck in a state of play pretend.
I couldn't find my way home
To the land where my heart beats wild.
So I stayed a while,
I stayed a while.

I always had my mother's arms to hold,
I was a daddy's girl through and through.
My friends, my sisters, at least I pretend,
My sisters were the enemy.
Though I was surrounded by love,
I was left blind, cool and empty.
I couldn't have you,
Because I didn't know me.
I hated walking alone,
I didn't like the company.
It was hard to keep breathing
I wanted to fly far,
Instead I stayed a while,
I stayed a while.

I was in love with the vintage 50's,
Or hippie 60's, groovy 70's,
Any time that wasn't here.
I was scared of the unknown,
The darkness, the meanness
Of the people in the world.
It was hard to find the unpaved road,
It was hard to find my place.
Cause this girl thrives with what's unseen,
I smile there, lost in a foreign land.
That's where I belong: nowhere.
This girl belongs nowhere,
I cannot stay this time,
I cannot stay.

I was born to be a drifter,
A pretty gypsy, fleeing city to city.
A life on the run
In the company of strangers.
But it's hard to be me
When they love me so.
It's hard to be free
When they want to keep me close.
I'm a Gemini queen,
A freedom angel,
The obsession for experience
Does not come lightly.
So I cannot stay,
I cannot stay.

I dance in the rain,
They do not understand.
Barefoot on the ground,
How can I be so crazy?
I've given way to insanity
And they think it's a joke,
I'm not the joker kind of kid.
I'm wild baby, hear me roar
In the jungle, the city, the mountains of the world.
I scream, I cry, I laugh, I fall,
They do not understand.
I am crazy, I don't need you,
So I will not stay,
I will not stay.

I'm not that sad girl who's always lost,
I found my wings on earth's floor.
Yes, heaven is here if you open up your soul,
If you leave those chains behind,
And open up that door,
When you hear the calling.
It comes quiet at first, then it comes pounding.
Will you open up that door?
I have, I have and I've found what I was looking for,
I freed my soul, I found my home,
In others like me, in myself, and in melody
I am free.
I'm a Nowhere Girl
I'll stay,
Nowhere Girl
I'll stay,
I'll stay.