Nothing Left But A Dying Soul Poem by Cassandra Howell

I'm searching in the darkness
I'm groping for something to grasp
In the distance I can see a light
And it's barely out of sight
I try to make my way to it
But with each step closer, I get hit
Driven down to the ground in pain
It tortures me till I cry out in vain
Each time I try to get up and try again
It knocks me down and reminds me of my sin
So I push it off and try to forget
But then I just fall deeper into this bottomless pit
Falling, falling, I wish I could stop
Every time I try to stand, all I do is drop
The light ahead is slowly fading
While the darkness is slowly shading
Over my life and into my thoughts
It's creeping in and my soul, it haunts
I wish there was something that could save me
Someone to pull me out of this hell just maybe
Those who have authority only tear me down
They think their words are helpful but I don't hear a sound
Time is moving on
And before I know it, it will be gone
I see now there is no cure
And it took all this time for me to be sure
That all I can do is whither away
Lock my soul and spirit in a dungeon where they will stay
Happiness can no longer come
I've searched and searched, but there is none
I'm now lost and alone
And I want it to be known
That I am no longer near
And this, above all, has been my worst fear
To be forgotten and dead
But it happened and there will soon be a coffin as my bed
I know know now there's no turning back
I wish I could find what it was I lacked
But I am the only one that I can blame
So I'll cover my face and die in shame
I'm now in the devil's hands
So he can carry out his evil plans