Not Fitting In Poem by Vidushi Khera

I never let out what my heart had to say,
But the moment of truth is here,
And it’s gonna stay, so today,
I’m gonna show what it feels like,
When I hide the truth from my soul,
When I ignore
What the person inside me has to show.
All I wanna be is pure,
But I keep telling myself,
No one’s gonna love you,
And I’m so scared that I let go,
Of what I want to be,
And what I want to do,
And I run from the truth,
But the lies hurt me too,
So what am I supposed to do?
I’m stuck in a world that is even worse,
For everything I have to rehearse,
What I’m going to say,
But again,
I’m trying to break free,
So I’m not even fitting in between.
Truth and lies are okay,
But my woes are here to stay,
In this world I’m stuck in,
Where everything is twisted and mixed,
What’s true what’s not I’m in a fix,
Don’t know who to believe, who to ignore?
What to treasure, what to let go?
Trying so hard to be everywhere,
Had more of life’s everything –
Joys, sorrows, hurt and pain,
Much more than my share.
And I don’t know what to do now,
Now that I have to choose,
But what’s the point, tell me how,
Can I keep what I have to lose?