Not An Angel Poem by Taylor Ingram

I was silenced by a tidal waves of pills and loved ones,
spiralling into a hurricane made up of lies and hurt,
And now the ice i'm skating on is getting pretty thin,
i might as well just give in,
Come on, watch me try and swim,
I say to myself ‘How can i love if i've never been loved? '
While i'm being pushed and shoved, thrown in the dirt,
Why do people keep making me hurt?

Im not an angel, but ill try spread my wings and fly,
i'm just trying to get by, but i'm walking away with less of myself everyday,
Its not something you can just pay for, everyone is Tailor made,
If only there could be happy memories to express,
Now i'm looking out into this black and white world,
Wondering how this came to be,
Scars won't fade, either will the darkness,
I'm like a shooting star, i keep going then i soon crash,

I use to listen to my father play guitar, and sing me a song called ‘I love you',
but those words don't matter one bit to me now,
Because all you do is light a cigar and have a beer,

My life is wasted away, forever i will have this lingering cloud above my head,
They call it the silent murderer, its called depression
And when i lay in bed, thats all i can see,
This is my confession,
As i said earlier,
I am not an angel, but ill try spread my wings and fly.