No Longer Could I Poem by Marcquiese Burrell

No longer could i bear the burden
Living in a world grown cold and hateful
See my heart has taken quite a few blows
As i struggle to stand on my own two feet
But what hurts the most
Is that those whose close
Avoid you because of who you are
Avoid you because of what you've become
And it's that pain that triggered a chain reaction
That would lead me driving down a road
Where i would spiral out of control
During my darkesr hours, i'd find solace in toxic consumption
Due to what i've faced earlier on
I felt i was unworthy to be loved
Looking at my own reflection
Harboring hate and disdain
Some days i've experienced highs
And during others, i have hit a record low
Often questioning what my purpose on earth was
Inflicting pain upon myself that would subside
But i was addicted to the feeling
No longer could i live
If living is this harsh
No longer could i feel
If feelings continued
Taking a dive