New Beginning Poem by Jenah Bergman

never did i think
never in my entire life
did i think
that this could happen
something this big
this amazing
never will i
never will i think i deserve this
something this good
how could this happen to me
why
i dont deserve this good life
i dont
i wish i thought i did
but i dont
i hope someday
i hope someday that will change
actualy forget someday
im choosing today
i deserve happiness
even if i dont believe it
i will say it
i deserve this good
this amazing thing
this life changing thing
im done
i cant hate myself
i wont
i hope i wont
i hope i will believe
believe all what im saying
i hope that i wont hate myself
i hope i will forget the bad
and start with the new
if i continue with the bad
then there will not be good
there will not be amazing
there will just be hell
locked in facilitys
away from everyone
everyone who has cared
everyone who has ever helped me
today im starting my new
my new life
there are going to be negative times
thats life
but if you cant accept me
if you want to judge me
then say good-bye now
i wont deal with that
if you care then you will stay with me
through everything i go threw
somethings about me
you just have to accept
your have nothing to do with me
this is my new beginning