Never To Reopen Poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar

Serious I am,
About my life.
The people in it.
And what I do.
I give any way that I can.

And when the reception,
Of what I have to give...
Is not taken as seriously,
When taken.
Since no fluff do I leave.
Or intend to be perceived that way...
A door closes!
Never to reopen.

I am not on this mission,
To fantasize my deeds.
Or journey on a path wishful thinking.

I've stumbled too many times to get up.
To stand to fall and crawl.
Not caring if it is done in broad daylight!

I have no shame to claim...
Or will carry!
I am here to proclaim my existence.
Not to have it dismissed,
By nonesense doers and their shallowness.

And there are just too many of them...
Wanting but not doing what it takes,
To get things done.

And maneuvering...
Through that kind of indecisiveness,
On a daily basis,
Keeps the mind exhausted.
With thoughts of wishing to please.
Not me!
There are too many unconscious,
Throwing their emotions all around.
And I am not here to catch anyone's pity.

I've pulled myself out of that kind of darkness.

Serious I am,
About my life.
The people in it.
And what I do.
I give any way that I can.

And IF I can't?
I don't!
I close down.
But...
I'm always there and open,
For the ones I want around!