Nataly & Miya, You Own My Heart Poem by Edgard Canales

Nataly & Miya, you own my heart
wish things would have been different from the start.
I made harmful mistakes in the past
just a teen confused and living fast.
I had a hard time adjusting in the world
my actions led me to a cell missing both my little girls.
Nataly, you are my oldest baby
brought joy to my life when all I could feel was hatred.
Most your life I have been away,
Always making you promises,
that things will be different and together we will be one day.
A real father I have yet to be,
I get so happy and so nervous when you visit me.
We have always been so far apart
so it amazes me how Daddy remains first in your little heart.
The day you came after we had not seen each other in some years,
It was a surprise from my family,
so when you walked by, my heart stopped,
everything was in slow motion and I could not contains my tears.
I remember we hugged each other really tight,
we were so excited we stayed up to talk all night.
I think you look so much like your mother,
but there's a sparkle in your eyes that won't deny that your my daughter.
Take the time to thank my family & your mother,
through all the missing time and prison time they never let you forget who's your father.
In different countries so it's hard to keep in touch
there's a hole in my chest because I love and miss u so much.
Miya, the smallest and the one I have never met,
seeing you get older through pictures leaves me such a mess.
I know someone else as a father for some time has took my place,
but I thank him as long as he loves you like I do and keeps you safe.
Complicated so your mother and me might not agree at times,
but I know that she is still a good person deep inside.
We speak on the phone once or twice a year,
but just to hear your little voice breaks me down in tears.
My voice trembles when I speak,
I pray one day we have a chance to meet.
At the end of our conversations It just melts me when you say:
I love you Daddy, Good bye for now, we will speak another day.okay?
Sorry, there's not much I could do but Fantasize,
about moments we would have if we were in each others live's.
Your pictures of the park and the beach
turn to short stories and movies which in my mind I can see.
Like Nataly you so smart and you so bright
my strength in life and my inspiration when I write.
Nataly & Miya, you are growing up
and with you both I just want a chance to share my love.
Only time will tell how long we will be apart
want you let to know I love you both with all my heart.
I really do pray things between us get a little better
Hurts not to have you near so I shed some tears as I write this letter.
Circumstances in my life have not let me be there for you both,
It also hurts to say that all I could do is pray for better days and never loose hope.
My heart has been crying for awhile
can't find the words to explain how much I love and miss my child.
Nataly & Miya, you own my heart
wish things would have been different from the start.