My Only Teacher Was My Pain (Revised&Extended) Poem by Tatianna Rei Moonshadow

After so many months of struggle
That put me through too much Hell to say
I guess my only prize
Was learning to walk away
After so many months of dreams
I'll only remember you as something less than real
Like an illusion or a fantasy
Though tangible with eyes cold and blue as steel
After so many months together
It took me one hundred and fifty days to adjust to us being apart
Even nearly a year later
I'm still nursing the broken heart
After so many months of elaborate declarations
I'm stuck sorting out which were lies
But it's hard to tell fact from fiction
When you had such convincing eyes
After so many months beside you
It took quite some time for me to be able to stand alone
And though I'm not used to the emptiness yet
Somehow I'm managing to make it on my own
After so many months of devotion
Maybe you were fine but it killed me to just walk away
And though you forced me to realize that love isn't always enough
The time with you was worth the crippling pain
After so many months of promises
It's hard to count how many you chose to break
One sentence from you ripped my heart from my chest
The hole won't close but you were worth this constant ache
After so many months of sunshine
You taught me finally that I'm not afraid of the rain
But it wasn't really you who taught me
In reality My Only Teacher Was My Pain