Daniel Ilyas ilyas


My Life, (Charlie Feehan, RUNNER)


Hours alone staring at my ma
Days on days with the pillow I’d fight.
Nothing ever came out the way I want it to,
And when it did
I was always ashamed to play it for you.

Where’s the talent and why don’t I have it?
Where’re the secrets and why can’t I find it?
Where’re the words that'll stop the world?
Where's the beat the world's greatest heartbeat?
Why do all my lyrics seem to always repeat, repeat, repeat?

I did illegal, I played for Squizzy Taylor,
But nothing ever came of it.
But soreness
Wasted energy doing the wrong thing,
Frustrated like another lost fight
I give up for yet another night.

I had hope, I wished, and wondered,
But nothing ever came of it.
Words that make no sense to you.
I’m running in circles trying again and again,
But it always comes out like a dagger out in me

Where’s the talent and why don’t I have it?
Where’re the secrets and why can’t I find it?
Where’re the words that'll stop the world?
Where's the beat the world's greatest heartbeat?
Why do all my lyrics seem to always repeat, repeat, repeat?

Laying awake at night,
The pain in my heart I just cant find
Why did you have to go away?
You held me up when I was weak,
You hugged me close when tears I'd weep.
When things got hard, you pushed me through.
You always showed me you loved me true.
Why did you have to leave so soon, leaving me
Too face your catastrophic life

Long nights, feeling frolic as a child plays
holding some pounds,
Drivin' around all night
Returning to the frustration,

I got nothing from him yet I wanted it so bad,
What am I doing so wrong?
Why can’t I get good song?

When the burden of life is
too much

as the rain
to the cloud

and you are so tuckered out
that you can't bear

any more
the weight and pressure

your legs are dead
you feel burned out

and out of coldness
you condense and freeze

though you try hard
to conceal

but the wind knows all
and tells


different stories
with hundred photographs

real and genuine
through your two beautiful

and bright eyes
only a true friend knows

how to read
and what goes inside your soul.

Nostrils, I am sorry for what I had done with you,
Running, on that night for Squizzy. It’s all my fault, I knew
It was coming, but that cloud on my eyes

Then it is I realized,
That man with the sausage throat,
When I needed him
Running for my life
In the dark someone chasing me with a knife.
Linger in the door way as alarm clock screaming
Specters coming my way
That’s when I ran for myself,
Not for Squizzy anymore.

I wear the family boots!
What am I now going to do.

I went to that race
And got that what I dreamed,
Cause I ran for myself!

Run Run Run Running for my life
Screaming for help while Im running catching my breath
Soaring, Speeding, Stumbling on all the obstacle of life course
Like I'm in a military station course finishing my goal escaping
Safe for now waiting for the sun to rise.

Submitted: Thursday, November 07, 2013
Edited: Tuesday, November 19, 2013

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Putting myself, in Charlie Feehan's boots, from the text 'RUNNER'

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  • S.zaynub Kamoonpuri (11/7/2013 11:56:00 PM)

    Woah nice personal epic, written in a fine lyrical ranting way. U hav poetic talent. Pls read mine n tel if u likd any (Report) Reply

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