My Heart Aches Poem by stephanie spencer

My Heart Aches


My heart aches for you Dad
why did you have to go?
I'm trying to hold back the tears
and not let the pain show,
But I'm angry and sad dad, angry
because you was took from me,
But mostly sad because in my
life you can no longer be.

I know you tried fighting it
Dad right up to the very end,
But death suddenly snatched you away
when we thought you was on the mend,
You tried hiding away because you
was stubborn and you was strong,
But I'm sorry I told everyone they would
have found out you was ill before long.

I know you had it in your head they
had no right to know as they didn't care,
But more people than you realised
had there peace with you to bare,
I wont lie dad to me you wasn't a
perfect parent but none of us are,
But I saw how much you changed,
you tried harder, you raised the bar.

It doesn't matter to me how much
you did I will always love you,
And I hope I spent enough time
with you that you know this is true,
I will always keep in mind, gone
but never forgotten as I always say,
Because dad how can I ever forget
that you passed away near my birthday.

I'm grateful our last conversation for
a change wasn't all that bad,
You told me you was proud of me
for that I shouldn't be sad,
So I will make you proud dad and
write a story like I promised to,
And if I get published one day my first
book will be dedicated to you.

I feel for you dad nothing
I write will ever be enough,
But I will keep writing even
when times seem tough,
This final act I can do for you
is to keep to what I last said,
And write my story every word
for you that are in my head.