Mixed Feelings Poem by Paul Elenora

It sprang up from a thought I cannot now place.
It started off from a reality I can now barely face.
I am strong. But my mind tells me otherwise.
I am worried over a fear I should resent.
I am not worried maybe bitter. But how can I tell.
My heart aches; not from heartbreak
my mind wanders away. I have no clue where.
I wanna be mad. But I must be strong.
I wanna give up but I must stand up.
I wish I knew one word for all these.
I wouldn't have need of tiring you with my boring
Unending lines of mixed feelings