Memoir Of Ben (05-2009) (/) Poem by Jordan Legaspi

Memoir of Ben


I can't forget the day he kissed me
the rape of innocence, I was then sixteen
at first exploration, but soon a played me
the rehearsal but to be written in my skin.
The promise of youth and the all I wanna be
-the scene; the screen- everybody's fame
but it cannot be willed, nothing is for free
so I lied everything including my name;
Thus, room and alleys -the again and again
-hardcore play, gang bang, and that I become
twenty-four seven, addicted perhaps insane
at times obscured, want to die with my dream:
Just among them, whose kiss is but not for real,
Just among them, whose smile is but just for awhile.


Note:
P.U.B. (Pick Up Boys Collection) Issue # 05 series of 2009
"Memoir of Ben" is a story about a young man (friend to the author) whose desire is to be a successful performing artist. Ben starts to climb the ladder of fame, thus destiny slowly spinning yet heading to a wrong direction. His relationship to Mr. X alienated him from what were then his ideals.