Masks To Wear Poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar

Masks To Wear



Mending to heal completely,
Isn't easy.
Faking a facing to escape from agony,
Seldom offers an exit to open freely...
For anyone to breathe deeply,
A fresh air that leaves them without cares.
To then pretend they have recovered,
From a pain felt that has suddenly ended.

Rejecting total honesty to sleep with denial,
Comfortably...
Has its drawbacks.
Lieing to oneself repeatedly when pain attacks,
Ultimately introduces one to humility.
Especially when a medication taken,
Only numbs with it done temporarily.
And truth to disconnect from deception arrives.

Pain of any kind until it leaves,
Is as close and honest as one can get...
To knowing what affects 'their' reality.
Clear and personal it is needing no interpretation,
To describe how it should feel when pain hurts.
Pain of any kind to feel until it leaves,
Has us pleading to God...
To intervene with relief.

Pain strips away those false masks to wear.
Impressions to make.
And games of charade to masquerade.
To know that a refusing of truth,
With a successful denying of its presence...
Can only be done when one is sedated with ego.
And over-medicated with pride.

(OH GOD HELP ME JESUS!)

'Excuse me.
Is there someone screaming upstairs? '

~Yes.
And as I was saying...
There is just too much violence,
And not enough empathy around these days.~

'WHY are you pretending not to hear,
What to me is clearly someone in severe pain.'

~I was told to mind my own business,
When I brought to them morphine to take.
And then it was thrown in my face.
With it then said I need not express concern.
But I must say...
The taking of it has its benefits.
I hear the screams but for some reason,
Its enjoyed.
You want one? ~

'Sure.
Now I can go back home.
To pretend I enjoy making love,
With my mate like it's a one night stand.'

~It can't be that bad.~

(OH GOD HELP ME JESUS!
WHY don't you answer my prayers.
I am in NEED.
Why do You have me here to suffer?
WHY GOD? WHY?)

'Give me two of those.
And in the morning I'll tell you how I feel.'

Thursday, April 16, 2015
Topic(s) of this poem: life
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