Love's Perview Poem by Lonnie Hicks

If I offer you all my love
will you value it?

Or think me cheap
to offer it
so easily?

If I deny you my love
will you
lose interest
and leave me
alone
and lonely?

If I am mysterious
and offer not;
am vague
will you first be intrigued
and later lose interest?

Shall I then concentrate
and be interested only
in my needs
ignoring yours
and risk
your anger
your rejection
your hurtfulness?

Can I suppress
all I am
and give you everything
you need
but feel one day
my own anger
rise
as my heart
is emptied;

and my waterfall
ceases
leaving me feeling

dead and lonely?

Should I ignore
all of this
and conclude
I am not really ready
for love;
certainly not sex
and wait
for the Perfect One
enduring
the Aloneness?

Should I just do drugs?
Masturbate?
Eat too much?

Cling to friends?
Isolate?

All this
is part of growing up.

None of it easy stuff.

My view?

Come away from the early years
with as little damage as you can
so that you survive it all
being the you
you looking for.

If there is a secret
it is this:
being sure
you are the best
you
you are looking for.