Loseing Me Poem by Sadie Vanity

i used to feel and be so happy on the outside
but on the inside the real me was trapped
when i look back now i think of how stupid i was, i am so much more alive now on the outside
but inside i am so dead
i wish people would forget who i used to be
shes dead and gone
the old me will see day
or feel the night never again
Buried beneath the ground so deep
suffocated and hated by who i am now
no matter what i do, her memory lives on in the eyes and hearts of people who surround me
even though shes dead and gone there is no escape
i realized how much i hated her
hated everything people turned me into
I realized she wasnt me
when she died i came out from deep inside
she was nothing but my shell
my cover and an empty reflection
the real me comes through as i shed my old pathetic skin and here i am the real me breathing
as my black filled soul is bleeding
the old me is gone lost and forgotten and never to return