List Poem by tyler eisner

As of late I've contemplated what I want
A girlfriend, a best friend, a friend, a “close” friend
And frankly I'm not sure
I was talking with a friend today about all of the girls I used to like,
And it occurred to me that I'm losing track, and therefore need to keep it
But I’d never use anyone’s name so I have to code them
By characteristics.
For instance
She who looked different in math
Or new blood that drains too slow
Or even best friends girlfriend
But even with all these codes I'm still not sure
If all I want is “ “,
Or if this is just what friendship feels like?