Left Alone With Distrust Poem by Hasan Haskovic

Yesterday
Stays so distant
So far away
All the memories, so inconsistent
With what I feel today

Never a person
So rid of trust
Never a person
So horrified of the unjust
So terrified of everything

Yesterday
You were that vivid vista
That haunts my dreams
Now just another crossed line
On the wall of my failures
Just another razor
That split my wounds at their seams

How long
Will I have to wait
Before I soar through the sky
How long
Will I have to wait
Before I fade, before I die?

I swear
My defectiveness
Is a state I can not cure
Yet you, you promised
That with you I'll endure
That together we'll hold the line

But again
All I ever feel is the scent of rust
The feeling of distrust
That you left me with
I'm tired of it

I'm tired of thinking
And of my heart shrinking
Because it knows
I'll never see you again

And still, so set out
On discovering where I went wrong
Instead of just letting go
Finding a better song
And singing along

Just another story I had to end
Just another wound I can't mend
Just another line I couldn't transcend

Better off alone
Made of flesh and of bone
But never hurt
And never broken

Some truths
Are better left unspoken

An envoy of the misunderstood
I stand where no one could
Between honesty and my promise

I swear
I'm better off alone