K. An Out Of Step Love Story Poem by Flying Lemming

My mind's been full of thoughts since that door was closed on us.
And I still care so much for you that I slunked off with no fuss.

But the thoughts an feelings will not fade.
I just have to live with the choices I made.
But here I'll leave my thoughts displayed.
As a monument or epitaph.

And fill it with thanks and fond recalls.
Of sharing joys and supporting falls.
Of a friendship and love that never stalls.
Along our entwined path.

You never realise just how much you're worth.
The countless positives that you share.
From the heart and shoulder you give to everyone.
Which is why you're surrounded by so much care.

You're always there in times of woe.
If anyone has suffered a blow.
And needs support they know where to go.
Your care for others has no end.

Yet you never feel it means that you.
Can call on them when you are blue.
Because that's just not what you do.
As you were just being a friend.

But you are so much more than that.
Because you really take to heart.
The tears of others, the pain, the hurt.
And that's what makes you stand apart.

Sympathy and empathy you never lack.
You do all you can to get them on track.
Even at the detriment to your back.
Your pain is never a barrier.

That's why I was, and always will.
Be proud to be there for you still.
With anything you can't fix with a pill.
When you need a guide or carrier.

You're a giving person who always tries to see the best.
Yet you never let yourself be taken for a fool.
I was always very proud to bask in your reflection.

You're truly open and really genuine and honest.
Which is why you thrive while at your school.
Why the kids you teach always make a strong connection.

I love the way your mind randomly works.
The thousands of giggles, laughs and smirks.
And your embracing of your OCD quirks.
How you'd unleash that beautiful smile without warning.

The compulsive cleaning that you just couldn't stop.
The dustless rooms and sparkling counter top.
I was so full of pride I could almost pop.
when I got you to leave the washing up 'til the morning.

Maybe it was because we were so close, that's why you went away.
I know it bothered you I knew what you were thinking before you said it.
But that closeness gave us both strength and it will still be there every day.
I've embraced your trust and love and will never regret it.

The one thing I regret was my hurtful hesitation.
When you told me you loved me my self-deprecation.
Made me think it wasn't me but just the situation.
That made you open your heart so sweetly.
I wish then I had more romantic clout.
But I was engulfed by my usual self doubt.
But every fibre in me wanted to shout.
That I knew I felt the same way completely.

But what's done is done, and as is my usual route.
I realise too late when to wait or take pursuit.
And I will always treasure every second and touch you shared with me.
But I'm not ashamed to write it here.
I felt most like 'me' when you were near.
So think of me when you clean you sink or drink your tea.