Its Not Your Fault Poem by Maria Mullin

It’s not your fault
You didn’t know what you were doing
You had no idea what you meant to me

But if you had just let me speak
I wouldn’t be here now
Forcing myself to hold tight to all I have left

For a year now
I have choked back the tears
I have swallowed my words

Everything I ever wanted to say was lost
I’d whisper them into the dark
Wishing you could hear me

I wanted so much to tell you
That I lied awake at night
Tears streaming down my face

I wanted to tell you everything
That I needed you
I wanted to say everything I ever dreamed about saying to you

I held my breath
Waiting, watching
Wondering

Only now do I realize
You may never know
If I never tell

So it was never your fault
I cried so many tears for you
But I never gave myself a chance

To let you in
To break down my barriers
Its not your fault
I forgive you
You never knew

I’m sure if you did
You would have been there
To wipe my tears
And hold me close

So its not your fault
You had no idea what you were doing
You had no idea what you meant to me

It’s not your fault
I forgive you
You never knew