It's Not Easy Being A Foster Parent Poem by Patricia Kelley

Sometimes it’s not easy being a foster parent.
I feel transparent.
I don’t know how to bond with you.
If only I knew.
All the hurts and pain you went through in life.
I would know how to deal with the strife.
Sometimes your words cut through like a knife.
Life is too short to be filled with anger.
I get tired of feeling like an annoying stranger.
Why can’t you tell that all I want to do is love you!
I know life isn’t always easy.
But, you are a beautiful being.
Everything that happened to you, I wish I could wipe away.
I pray that one day, you see the truth.
After you have grown through your youth,
I just wanted you to love me one day.
To me it makes no difference that I didn’t give birth to you.
If only you knew how much I love you.
If I could, I would rewrite time for you.
I love you!
To me you’re the sun the moon and the stars a new beginning that’s new.
My love for you grew.
Each day I saw you.
Like a baby tree that I watered.
I’m swimming with you in deep waters.
You’re not walking this life alone.
I want this love I have for you to be known.
I’m with you until you’re grown.
This love I have for you will never end.
You’re my daughter and my friend.