It Had Been Always That Way. Poem by Raouf Reda

All those years I thought that I was cursed
With all kinds of pain I was immersed

Never crossed my mind what happened
After grief life decided to ripened

So I couldn’t believe that change
I felt there is something strange

I couldn’t stand for happiness
As my history controls my madness

For all of my life I was to sorrow addicted?
Like a sociological disease & I had been infected

A disease that drives my sadness to an extreme
Like watching a horror movie & shocked with a love scene

So forgive me my lover if I am not optimistic
As life forced me not to believe in magic

I know that it hurts you when you see me sad
But it had been always that way since I lost my dad