Invisible. Poem by vanessa feliciano

Even when I'm walking on a wire
Even when I set myself on fire
Why do I always feel invisible?
Everyday I try to look my best
Even though inside I'm such a mess
Why do I always feel invisible?
invisible...
Trying, trying...waiting
bloodless, sleepless, humiliating
I am not me. She is not her
Tired eyes, helpless cries
just trying to get by
but mirrors falsify, mirrors lie
dont look at me, look away but look closer
stop looking at the god dammed shell
start looking for the soldier
the one shouldering the burden
the girl carrying the weight, against her fate
find her now, its becoming to late
ask the questions shes desperate to answer
shes burning inside, hideous cancers
Nights out, wiped out
crying in the night
Bright out, lights out
shes loosing this fight
Heavy, Heavier, Heaviest
Shes benching triple her weight
pushing faster down steep hills...guess who cut the breaks
open your eyes. open them wide
X-ray vision, see whats on the inside
tell her shes beautiful, make her feel right
push her up, use your strength, shoulder her strife.
Shes a liar, she lies
she'll tell you shes alright.
its not true, never believe shes selfless, painful, selfish
shes mad only because she knows...you know shes helpless
Desperate for revival
because I know I'm in denial.
I am her she is me
we are liars on trial
send me to the guillotines hang her on the noose
because I'll tell you shes not me
but I'm not telling you the truth
In mental state and physical
to you i am nothing but
Invisible.