Innocent Lost Poem by Kaila George

I can remember when I was so protective of my son

He had to be within my sight 24/7 when just a child

He was all that I have, he was and still is my world

I gave birth to him, he was my reason to live

I had prayed...yes I had...to the lord to have a child

And he gave me my son.....sigh

Brining him up as a single mum was hard,

But then I realized he needed his Dad

I had been undecided as to if I should let him go....

Should I....or Shouldn't I....sigh...was hard...damn hard

For eleven years he was mine, loved and cherished every day of his life

The hardest thing I have ever done was let him go to live with his dad

Hurt beyound anything I have ever felt....he was not home with me

He was with his father...doing gawd knows what....sigh...I just didnt know anymore

But his father is a good man...I'm not saying he is not....no far from it....smiles

He spoilt him rotten, he could get what I could not give...all those luxerys children expect

We both love him to death...I am the hard parent his father the softy...smiles

Since leaving home he as done things I was protecting him from...

And should I lose him once again to a system thats gone bad....I dont know what to do

He is and will ever be my world and his fathers too.....but what can we do....sigh

We both have talked into the long hours of the night going over things we could of done

Things that could of been....sigh....just at a loss really I am...smiles

But life goes on, damn it hurts... but hell....living and breathing is gonna be hard

Just knowing he may be gone for a long while....I know we have to wait and see...

Its the waiting thats killing me....gah....enough said....you pick up what I have just said

Life suks but we have to live...gawd its hard

So peps if I have to come on to have time just to get away for a few hours...give me break

Stop bickering amongest yourself....we have hidden agendas...I'm here to write

What are you here for.....sigh....said my 10cents worth but who really cares right...

Sorry Just being a emo cow right now...so shoot me...gah